After two years of knowing each other, more than a month of courtship, twenty months of being together, and nearly ten months of being apart, here we are, taking this second chance and hoping we could make it right this time. And here I am, saying:
Happy 1st month again, love. :)
You know at times I'd like hate you for leaving me before, but looking back, I'd like to thank you instead, for having the courage to let everything go, since we both know (even if we failed to admit it) that it's much worse to keep on holding on - our relationship has turned more bitter than sweeter.
I remember everything you told me before. I remember how you asked for space, and days after, totally giving up. I even remember how you told me that there's someone special. And it hurts like hell to tell you "It's okay." because it's not.
It hurt me so much since I know that for you, there's no turning back. But since I know you very well, I made a bet with your bestfriend that you'll ask me back sooner or later. And she would not believe me.
Yes, I admit, I had a hard time facing the truth. I was used to having you around, to you waiting for me hours to finish cheerleading practice just to be with me after, to you eating dinner with my family, and to you who's always by my side.
I could have sworn you don't care about me anymore. I knew by then I lose the bet. But late January, I found out you keep on viewing my Multiply with this weird user ID. And it went on until summer. Even if there's nothing you'll ever see since everything's private. :P Haha. But that's how I realize you still care, and you will always do.
It was only six months after that I realized I already moved on. It was your bestfriend's birthday and we met up together with your other bestfriend to surprise her. The first time I saw you close enough and the first time I talked to you personally, after the break-up. You keep on teasing me. No more regrets and I was happy to see you happy. That's the closure I have long been asking for.
A month after, I met someone I've known before. We instantly clicked. This time we got the chance to know each other better. And I'm happy with him.
But maybe destiny really has its way of letting things fall into their right places. You and I became friends again. The same time, things weren't going on smoothly between him and me. You became my crying shoulder. You comforted me.
Days after, you apologized. You said you missed me so much. I told you, "Wala na yun." which is true. My friends keep on telling me that there is something going on when in reality, there's none. You even talk to me even when you're with your group. I suppose that's the way it's going to be since we really have moved on. We're friends, we're good and we're cool with that.
To my surprise, my friends were right. Weeks after, you were there asking for a second chance. Who would have thought that I'd still win the bet?
Now, after some months of friendship and more months of exclusivity, I'm glad I made the right choice. :D
Thank you for being a wonderful boyfriend and for still being with me even during those times that I keep on pushing you away. I love you. :>
►Selle. 19 year-old full-time Accountancy student. Future CPA-lawyer and pastry-chef wannabe.
► Talkative, hyper, loud and yes, sometimes snob. Admits to being moody, bratty and bitchy butonly when forced to. :P
► Loves dancing (even cheerleading, jazz, gymnastics, yoga and the like), Nicholas Sparks novels, get-aways, heart-to-heart and sensible talks with friends, Asian dramas and ABS-CBN Primetime shows (LOL).
► Has this weird study habit of listening to really loud rock music while reading and solving Accounting problems. (Yesss, it IS effective. ;P)
► Adores Audrey Hepburn and has this fascination over everything vintage and European - dear ol' England with its history full of monarchs, hats and corsets, fabulous long bubbly gowns, and just the hiistory itself. :)
► Lastly, Self-confessed wanderlust - adventure-seeker. :) Will go to places to meet people, to discover cultures, to appreciate everything beautiful this world has to offer. ♥
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Joselle Allyssa.
