Thursday, April 30, 2009 4:57 PM
After two years of knowing each other, more than a month of courtship, twenty months of being together, and nearly ten months of being apart, here we are, taking this second chance and hoping we could make it right this time. And here I am, saying:
Happy 1st month again, love. :)
You know at times I'd like hate you for leaving me before, but looking back, I'd like to thank you instead, for having the courage to let everything go, since we both know (even if we failed to admit it) that it's much worse to keep on holding on - our relationship has turned more bitter than sweeter.
I remember everything you told me before. I remember how you asked for space, and days after, totally giving up. I even remember how you told me that there's someone special. And it hurts like hell to tell you "It's okay." because it's not.
It hurt me so much since I know that for you, there's no turning back. But since I know you very well, I made a bet with your bestfriend that you'll ask me back sooner or later. And she would not believe me.
Yes, I admit, I had a hard time facing the truth. I was used to having you around, to you waiting for me hours to finish cheerleading practice just to be with me after, to you eating dinner with my family, and to you who's always by my side.
I could have sworn you don't care about me anymore. I knew by then I lose the bet. But late January, I found out you keep on viewing my Multiply with this weird user ID. And it went on until summer. Even if there's nothing you'll ever see since everything's private. :P Haha. But that's how I realize you still care, and you will always do.
It was only six months after that I realized I already moved on. It was your bestfriend's birthday and we met up together with your other bestfriend to surprise her. The first time I saw you close enough and the first time I talked to you personally, after the break-up. You keep on teasing me. No more regrets and I was happy to see you happy. That's the closure I have long been asking for.
A month after, I met someone I've known before. We instantly clicked. This time we got the chance to know each other better. And I'm happy with him.
But maybe destiny really has its way of letting things fall into their right places. You and I became friends again. The same time, things weren't going on smoothly between him and me. You became my crying shoulder. You comforted me.
Days after, you apologized. You said you missed me so much. I told you, "Wala na yun." which is true. My friends keep on telling me that there is something going on when in reality, there's none. You even talk to me even when you're with your group. I suppose that's the way it's going to be since we really have moved on. We're friends, we're good and we're cool with that.
To my surprise, my friends were right. Weeks after, you were there asking for a second chance. Who would have thought that I'd still win the bet?
Now, after some months of friendship and more months of exclusivity,
I'm glad I made the right choice. :D
Thank you for being a wonderful boyfriend and for still being with me even during those times that I keep on pushing you away. I love you. :>
Wednesday, April 15, 2009 1:26 PM
No commenting for now. :|
I still can't make it work. Help, please. :)
Chatbox nalang muna.
Temporary lang, since hinde pwedeng maka-comment for now.
Boo talaga.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 10:45 PM
I'm having the best summer ever and it still keeps on getting better! :)
Okaaay. Masaya ako, sobra. Haha.
Hello, reader.
Hey, welcome again. ;p I finally changed the old layout and some stuff after a very busy semester. Like it? Anyway, my codes are kind of messed up and my haloScan's not yet working. So sorry. My HTML-coding logic has been on a hiatus so I can't make it work. :| No commenting for now.
Hello, K.
I miss my girls. Sobra. I ditched them during our sem-ender gimmick at Greenhills. Oh, I didn't totally ditch them. Although I was willing, I was too tired to even think of having a night out immediately after exams. Nun lang naman kaya ako umatras sa gimik namin. My first absent, and hopefully my last. :)
Hello, Momarco.
First summer pitstop. Nice ambiance, though not really for kids. No slides. Anyway, I don't care just because I don't swim. Haha. :P They've got this great scenery which I really love. Todo moment kami dito. Oh well.
Hello, Canyon Cove.
Outing with my A3/A4 class, and with Kyle. Sun, sand, beach, group games and pool. PLUS the food! My first time to snorkel. Hello fishies! Feeling ko naman ang dami ko nakita. Others rode the banana boat too.
Hello, Tagaytay.
Overnight stay. Dinner til breakfast. Our outing's continuation. The place to be! Bonding. Booze. And foooood again. Haha! Sarap. :P Basketball with Edmarc, Kyle and Mikey. Jamming with the others.
Hello, Cavite.
Lunch at Joanna's house. Buffet setting, almost bottomless drinks and the über-adorable ube-macapuno ice cream.
Hello, AceWaterSpa.
My first time here. Spa with Seph. Eto ang bonding moment namin. Haha. Yummy food, again. Takaw ko na nito. Haha. :))
Hello, March 30.
The date I'll always love. Kami ulit. Period. :)
Hello, Bolinao.
Beach, beach and again, beach. Sunburn, anyone? Haha. Ay shet buti di pa ko sunog. :P ComAch's turnover disguised as outing. (Or vice versa. You choose.) 2 days and 3 nights. Pia's house. Alis ng 5am. Rock Garden Resort at 10am. Check-in then lunch. Tampisaw. At syempre, pasyal. Enchanted Cave. The white beach nearby whose name I forgot. The sand is to love. :) Bora-like, baby.
Hello, Hundred Islands.
Alaminos, Pangasinan. Hundred Islands the next day. I was supposed to meet Bernard there, but since the boat could only accomodate up to 15 passengers, I couldn't invite him to come over. :| Lunch at Marcos Island. Snorkel. Wish ko lang may nakita ako at hindi lang deep blue sea. Dinner at Hacienda Luisita. Birthday treat nina KuyaAldrin at Ate Charlene. Belated Happy Birthday! <3
Hello, grades.
As much I would like to think that this is not yet the best grade I could get, I'm very pleased with my grades. Thank you very much, Papa God. :) I worked hard for it. If that's the grade that I deserve then I should feel content. If I would want a higher one, then I'll just try harder this forthcoming third year.
Hello, AceWaterSpa. Again. Then, hello Slice n' Dice!
I promised my sister that we will go there. Since sayang naman kung ako ulit kasama, sina Mommy, Daddy at JM nalang. Oo, chaperone kami ni Seph. Haha. Then stroll along Banawe. Seph and I ate at Slice n' Dice. We've been planning to eat there for some time already. Try there, it's worth it. After eating, we tried to look for a bakeshop. Then *poof!* may Cheesecake dun! Seph bought a cake for me. <3
Hello, Cagayan.
Just arrived from here. :) I haven't been there this past two years since Mom did not go home last year. Nothing much has changed. Boring pero masaya mag-perya. Haha. Oo, gambling. :P We also went to Aparri for the first time. Super fun. Love it!
Hello, Joseph P. Volfango!
Hi love. Surprise surpirse! I know you'll get to read this sooner or later. Stalker mode ka naman palagi, eh. Haha. And you told me to blog about Monopoly, diba? Oh yes, I won. Talo ka. Beh. :P Sorry kasi nag-stay ka ng late ngayon. Btw, I missed you. So much. And I know you missed me, too.
I love youuuu! :>
Hey reader. Again.
Sorry for the typos. If there's any, please let me know. (Leave some ♥, right corner. :)) Adrenaline rush kaya na-excite lang ako mag-update. My first time to use this PC all by myself. Yey. Haha.
Bye for now.
Joselle Allyssa.
